i am kind of depressed today

so... i am kinda sad. there are many reasons to be sad, disappointed, etc. i had a physics test on monday. i did not do so hot. i have a molecular biology test tomorrow and i have not yet studied. i have an american heritage test on monday and have not studied. all of these things are indeed grievious, however, the worst thing by far is that my poor white mouse, lola, died about an hour and one half ago. i have only had her for 8 months. i expected that she would live at least until june.

the hardest part was that i could see her going. she started shaking a lot on tuesday night. i tried to get her to eat something. i held her. she was just so pitiful. she was asleep when i got home from school today. i went and had lunch and when i came back 30 minutes later she was dead. poor girl. at least i knew it was coming. my golden mouse, loretta, slept by her all night. i think she is sad. she is usally really active but she is kind of lethargic today. i can't blame her. anyway, i think i am going to go buy a new one tonight after class so loretta can have a friend. i think i will get another white one. they remind me of lab mice and i like them. we'll see, i suppose. maybe i won't have to tell the little kids. they will all be so sad and want to have a funeral for her. but then, i always thought it was kind of evil to trick kids like that. it is only a small mammalian animal. they can handle it.

holy crap! er... i mean... i am not surprised by the song that just began to play on my computer. it is you've got a way by faith hill. delightful. i suppose that is what i get for listening to the notting hill soundtrack. not that i don't like faith hill. i am just not in the mood. just wait, boyzone will come on shortly. yuck. ah, yes, that is much better. how can you mend a broken heart? by al green.

i am definitely in the mood for a melancholy chick-flicky film. perhaps i will do that tonight instead of studying. good plan. after i write a letter to elder loveless. i am giving in. i feel bad that he is making me a tape and i didn't even take the time to write him back. so i am answering his letter he wrote me at the beginning of december.

well, i better go. i will end with the thought that the movie The Machinist is weird but delightful in a disturbing way, i highly recommend it. oh. also in the words of my brother, "i would like to like women again, i just can't see past the life-sucking evil" HAVE A GREAT DAY!